This is such a significant loss for men, as she is the most familial, dignified and moral type of lassie I’ve ever met. I’m no dignified, but I respect her dignity seeing that she preserves it with naivete – what a cute and pure thingy that could hardly be found in this dark world.
Her feminine nature
Peizhi was my best friend when I was studying abroad. She is petite and graceful. She is a bland kind of person if been known for a little while. Unfortunately I can’t help remembering her forever because the Creator gave unto me and her more moments between us. The guy codified us to share the same dwelling in a hall of residence.
At the very first beginning, she kind of stared at me, as I look too Chinese; whereas I was ambiguous about where she’s from, either East Asia or South East Asia. Later whenever we hung out and said that one of us was from Vietnam and the other was from Hong Kong, everyone presumed she was Vietnamese while I was Hong Kongese.
She holds a typical East Asian femininity in manner and demeanor, except that she dresses in a way which is far more minimalist and Western than the common style of other ethnic Chinese girls around us. She’s younger than me, yet looks quite adult. She fooled me with this appearance. Getting to know more about her enlightened me that she is perfectly green, not like a child but in a dovelike fashion. She is simple, introspective and devilishly ideal in a bunch of respects in life such as manners, dress and communication. This idealization too exists in her ideology of romance.
She pays attention to well-groomed guys and starts to develop feelings for them after a few winks. Still and all, she shrinks right from visualizing them herself in this cockeyed universe (“bland kind of person if been known for a little while” as explained). She hasn’t experienced a piece of relationship for twenty-something years accordingly. This is such a significant loss for men, as she is the most familial, dignified and moral type of lassie I’ve ever met. I’m no dignified, but I respect her dignity seeing that she preserves it with naivete – what a cute and pure thingy that could hardly be found in this dark world. Even her conservatism is sort of naive. For some guys to know her better, she is a great cook in both Western and Asian cuisine. Sometimes I suppose that being arranged to stay with her is God’s gift for me – which I’m doubtful of what fruit I used to trade with.
Her idealization of love
During a year together, I kept foaming at the mouth to educate her how to approach a guy and what to do for each step. She nodded her head wide-eyed and gobbled my words up. Eventually things got back on her own track. She wouldn’t touch her guy in the glass case and she would droop in front of him like the Mimosa. She was in love with the window in her room, where she looked at the young leaves on twigs hanging in a breeze and the verdant scenery of the residence. I bet that she did imagine about herself and him while watching the leaves and breeze. She must have been building a fairy-tale castle where they and only they were together. No doubt she would be in a huff if I compelled her to make dreams come true though.
Hence, after a while, I made an effort to refrain from pushing her and to free her up in her fantasy. As long as she is happy enough, it should be of little account which world of hers he resides in and how they actually interact. I went rash to change her at times, but then again I felt like myself going unnecessarily far. That she daydreams – from a candid perspective – says what she is. I love her naivete, don’t I? So, let her be that way. Let the sweetheart watch leaves and cook. People worry she might get deceived in love, or she might be loved less than she loves someone, as she idealizes romance while possessing little experience. I wouldn’t say I’m not worried. I also have no ideas if it gets to occur. However, dwelling on things can’t help much if those traits are in her nature. Besides, a good man will reap good things. Let’s just have faith. Anyway she is not that foolish not to wise up to a bad guy. Once his garbage is seen, he does ravage the statue she made of him. That daredevil must soon have a hard time to gain a foothold in her heart.
She is now a flight attendant. I believe there is scarcely a more appropriate job for her than this, as one of her missions to Earth is to look after humankind. A Thai girl I know who does the same job met her love on a flight she was serving. Who knows if my naive Peizhi, on one of her flights, would be abruptly asked for phone number by a cute guy?
I haven’t contacted her for a while. We locate in different places. We are introvert as well. Air carriers seem not to have a lot to do in this Covid-19 period though. Perhaps she is stiffly sitting by an open window and watching leaves at this moment. Otherwise she must be madly busy cooking for her whole big family. I seldom eat lamb, so it’s kind of faint to me. For unknown reasons, all what’s in my mind right now is her roasted lamb thighs.